Friday, April 23, 2010

Remember him?

Dear Stinky,
I know life has been hard for you lately. You've had a Mom who was really sick. Then a Mom who was really sad. To a Mom who is gone a lot. Your life has been turned upside down. Know that I'm always thinking of you. Know that I'm trying really hard to be with you as much as possible. While people are asking me how I'm doing or how Davy is doing, I wonder how you are doing.
Every time you throw a tantrum, everytime you hit someone, everytime you say"go away!", it makes me sad inside. And that every problem you'll have in life you will trace back to this time when you felt abandoned. I hope you are stronger then that. I hope you rise above this challenge.

Love, Mommy


10 comments:

Larsen Party 24/7 said...

aw, he'll understand as he grows older, i'm sure of it...but that must be hard for you to try to give attention equally in a situation like this. but it's not your fault, you're just trying to do your best! :)

p.s. harper is SUCH a cute boy.

Georgia said...

You know Ruth, as Mom's we do the best that we can. If we could stretch ourselves further....we would. You will be surprised how resilient and strong kids are. He may not understand now....but have faith....he will! You are a good Mom!!!!!

nikita said...

so cute.....!!!

-nikita
http://love-you-mom.blogspot.com

amber buhrley said...

I dont even know what to say. i know this has got to be so hard in more ways than any of us can know. I agree with Georgia, kids are resilient and they understand when we are doing our best. Focus on all the things that you are doing right for him not wrong!

Beth said...

I love that picture of him smiling under his 'Binky' In the picture before you think he is being so sad but then you get to see what is really going on...

Harper is an amazing kid...Nothing can melt your heart like Harper, when he sees you and runs up to you yelling your name and then gives you a BIG hug! It's priceless!

Cathy Woodruff said...

These pictures made my day... I just had to smile... Harper is an amazing little two year old with such a great little personality. Spending a week with him has made me look at life different... I can hardly wait to spend another week with him... He will get through this time and not even remember it! Although, it will a time that you will never forget. The only bummer about being a mother is you live your life in guilt... it seems like we can never do enough... you have great kids and your a great mom!

Becky said...

Look at those bright eyes! He's strong and he'll be fine!

Becky said...

Look at those bright eyes! He's strong and he'll be fine!

Becky said...

Look at those bright eyes! He's strong and he'll be fine!

Damaris said...

I'm suppossed to be writing a church talk right now about The Word of Wisdon, any thoughts? Instead I've been reading your blog. I've read all the posts from most recent till this one. This one made me cry. Maybe because it's past midnight, or maybe because it hits home.

You stinky is so cute. He will totally rise above the challenge.