Monday, May 24, 2010

The night before Davy was born, I was really scared. We knew there was a chance she could not make it and I dwelled on that thought most of my pregnancy. But the actual day of her birth I was really calm, right up until the moment that I had to push. That was when the thought hit home, she really could not make it. I looked around the room at the 10 plus doctors and freaked out inside. The only thing that calmed me was to hear that beautiful cry that came belting out of her lungs. All these hands checking her over to make sure she was OK. All these nurses and Doctors that helped her survive these past 66 days. And now it's up to me, my awkward hands. It's the night before I bring Davy home and I have all these same feelings again.

10 comments:

Kerstin said...

I completly understand you but I'm sure that you'll be able to do all this. First of all you still have a lot of people to help you and more importantly your are not irresponsable but prepared! There'll be lots of crying! ;-)

Kelsey Crowder said...

She will make it! You will be fine! The anticipation is always worse than the reality. You are a great mom. You have spent hours and hours learning and practicing, and your blog title says it all... You're the mom. You know her, you will know what she'll need, and you will be wonderful. And if you're feeling overwhelmed you have such great support systems and such willing helpers... You're not alone. Tomorrow will be a very special day... She's coming home! This is great news! Thinking of, and praying for, you all. Can't wait for the post on her homecoming!!!

Georgia said...

I am so happy to hear Davy is coming home today! You and Scott (and the village) will do this....and you will do it great! Thinking of you, and continuing to pray for your family! Big hugs Ruth!

Molly said...

I have been following Davy's story from the beginning--you CAN do this! You are fully equipped to deal with this--it's in your blood, it's in your lungs and your skin--it's what you were made to do!

Pemberley Court said...

I can't believe that she is coming home now!!!! You are so totally blessed to have awesome family close by!!! Just think of what a great inspiration you are to so many.

You are gonna be the BEST care giver to your daughter. You can totally to every difficult thing that is going to be before you. Look how far you've come {and Davy} and accomplished so far!

Lanie

Emily Rosell said...

You are much stronger than you think. And miss Davy has got that fight in her too. Such wonderful news. Now, what about the clothes situation? Can she wear little tees? I'm feeling a shopping urge coming on to celebrate.

Susie Demke said...

So happy you finally get to bring your daughter home. Everything is going to be okay:)
I can't wait to see her in person. Not just in photographs.

Melany said...

you can do this ruth! you have so much love and support around you and i know that doesn't erase those nervous feelings, but you can do it! davy will love being home and maybe having her there will make everything easier. i wish i could come see her! good luck with the transition!

Cathy Woodruff said...

Davy has such a special spirit about her. The way she smiles and looks up at you just melts your heart! WE are all so lucky to have her in our lives. I feel so bless to be living in her village... You and Scott are great parents; things are going to be OK.

heather said...

i get a nervous rush just thinking about all the precautions you have to take with davy at home, but i'm so excited for you! i really thought it would be another couple months before this day came. she is ADORABLE in those top 3 pics. and i love scott's "team davy" shirt. ryan says he wants one.