(please note the look of fear in her eyes)
My mission is "bring my baby home!" I'm doing what I gotta do and learning what I gotta learn, so I can get her outta here. Step one, stick a needle in my newborn baby. Step two, do step one. Step three, really Ruth you have to do step one.
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Yesterday the nurse asked me if I wanted to start giving Davy her growth hormone shot. I slowly answered .....um....OK. I knew this day would come and I knew I would be scared, but I have to take this step in order to bring Davy home. I had until 4pm, so all day I was giving myself a pep talk. This is no big deal...it's a small needle......this is for your little girl.....You got this!
It's 4pm, (cue scary music) The nurse hands me the needle. I pinch my baby's chubby little leg and......start sobbing. I can't do this. Who am I kidding. I hate shots. I am the Mom that always cries when her baby gets shots. When Max got stitches, I made my Niece come in with me so he didn't just have his crying mother at his side. I guess you get the point. I am a crybaby and I hate needles. So I failed my first attempt, so what. I will try again tomorrow.
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It's tomorrow. I walk in to the hospital with the Rocky theme song playing in my head. I will do this. I will give Davy her shot. Once again the nurse hands me the needle and my stomach drops. I pinch her legs and close my eyes. Wait, Ruth open your eyes, you kinda have to see what your doing. Cue Rocky theme song and..............Jab. I did it. Davy starts to cry, i start to cry, but with my head held high this time. I did what I needed to do.
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Just for fun, Guess how much Davy's daily shot costs. $25?.......$50?
Try $1500! I think their might be gold in that thing. $1500!!!! Sheesh.
15 comments:
Oh my gosh Ruth.....you did it. I know how hard that must have been! BUT YOU DID IT. I pray that you will be able to bring Davy girl home soon. Her picture you posted is precious. Continuing to pray!!!!
good job ruth! i tear up a little when penny gets her vaccination shots and stuff, too. but you'll be a pro if she gets one every day! i hope it gets easier for you.
I remember max's stitches, that was crazy. I would freak out if it were my own child too. I HATE taking Wendy to the doctor because she know what's coming and gets SO scared. When Davy comes home, if there's ever a time you're not feeling up to it, I will give her a shot for you.
ps. i think that is my favorite picture of davy so far. she has the most amazing eyes.
Great job Ruth I told you that you would be almost a nurse by the time Davy goes home...you should come work with us ;) Well we miss you at UCI...
Love,
Nurse Weslie
Wow!! She really is the million dollar baby! $1500 x 7= $10,500
x 4= $42,000 x 12 = $$$$$$$$$$
Davey is our million dollar baby! And worth every penny!!!!! Congrats on giving her the shot. Your one more step closer to bring her home.
I love this picture of Davy Jean and those beautiful eyes; I am just sorry that you had to look into those jewels while giving her a shot. :( We sure do miss you at UCI...
I am so proud of you. I can only imagine what that was like for you and I am sure that if it were me, I would be a hot hysterical mess. Look what you have accomplished in such a short time and all that you have experienced. I hope that you give yourself some serious credit for being so strong, even if you may not always feel that way. You were right about vegan food coming a long way and yes, we have a Whole Foods downtown. Thanks for the encouragement!
All I can say is... WOW. You are the MOM!
I look up to you!!! You are so strong!
oh ruth i would die if i had to do that, too!! you are so awesome! man i think about you & that darling baby every single day i hope you know! and maybe i say a prayer or 2 or 3 for her, too, b/c i think she is an absolute DOLL! i know it's so hard with her being in the NICU BUT i think you are so lucky to have that baby girl b/c she radiates this angelic personality that i just die over! i seriously cannot get enough of her! i'm glad things are going in the right direction & no heart surgery!!!! yahooo!!!! sending positive vibes your way...:)
WOW RUTHIE..... I JUST CAUGHT UP ON YOUR BLOG AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!... HAVING A SPECIAL NEEDS CHILD IS NOT EASY (I HAVE 2), I TOO HAD TO DO NEEDLES AND I HAVE DEALT WITH CHOC's HOSPITAL ALSO.... YES, I FELT THE SAME WAY.... YOU ARE VERY GOOD AT DESCRIBING YOUR FEELINGS AND EXPLAINING ALL THAT IS GOING ON.... THANK YOU..... I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MORE PICTURES.... YOUR FAMILY IS SO PRECIOUS.... ALL MY BEST FOR AN UN-EVENTFUL WEEK... OOXX LAURA :)
An ounce of gold today costs... $1,216.70! CRAZY!!!
You can do anything for your little girl!
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