Friday, May 14, 2010

I'm on a mission












































(please note the look of fear in her eyes)
My mission is "bring my baby home!" I'm doing what I gotta do and learning what I gotta learn, so I can get her outta here. Step one, stick a needle in my newborn baby. Step two, do step one. Step three, really Ruth you have to do step one.
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Yesterday the nurse asked me if I wanted to start giving Davy her growth hormone shot. I slowly answered .....um....OK. I knew this day would come and I knew I would be scared, but I have to take this step in order to bring Davy home. I had until 4pm, so all day I was giving myself a pep talk. This is no big deal...it's a small needle......this is for your little girl.....You got this!


It's 4pm, (cue scary music) The nurse hands me the needle. I pinch my baby's chubby little leg and......start sobbing. I can't do this. Who am I kidding. I hate shots. I am the Mom that always cries when her baby gets shots. When Max got stitches, I made my Niece come in with me so he didn't just have his crying mother at his side. I guess you get the point. I am a crybaby and I hate needles. So I failed my first attempt, so what. I will try again tomorrow.
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It's tomorrow. I walk in to the hospital with the Rocky theme song playing in my head. I will do this. I will give Davy her shot. Once again the nurse hands me the needle and my stomach drops. I pinch her legs and close my eyes. Wait, Ruth open your eyes, you kinda have to see what your doing. Cue Rocky theme song and..............Jab. I did it. Davy starts to cry, i start to cry, but with my head held high this time. I did what I needed to do.
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Just for fun, Guess how much Davy's daily shot costs. $25?.......$50?
Try $1500! I think their might be gold in that thing. $1500!!!! Sheesh.





15 comments:

Georgia said...

Oh my gosh Ruth.....you did it. I know how hard that must have been! BUT YOU DID IT. I pray that you will be able to bring Davy girl home soon. Her picture you posted is precious. Continuing to pray!!!!

Larsen Party 24/7 said...

good job ruth! i tear up a little when penny gets her vaccination shots and stuff, too. but you'll be a pro if she gets one every day! i hope it gets easier for you.

heather said...

I remember max's stitches, that was crazy. I would freak out if it were my own child too. I HATE taking Wendy to the doctor because she know what's coming and gets SO scared. When Davy comes home, if there's ever a time you're not feeling up to it, I will give her a shot for you.

heather said...

ps. i think that is my favorite picture of davy so far. she has the most amazing eyes.

weslie13 said...

Great job Ruth I told you that you would be almost a nurse by the time Davy goes home...you should come work with us ;) Well we miss you at UCI...
Love,
Nurse Weslie

Beth said...

Wow!! She really is the million dollar baby! $1500 x 7= $10,500
x 4= $42,000 x 12 = $$$$$$$$$$

Cathy Woodruff said...

Davey is our million dollar baby! And worth every penny!!!!! Congrats on giving her the shot. Your one more step closer to bring her home.

Angie Tito RN said...

I love this picture of Davy Jean and those beautiful eyes; I am just sorry that you had to look into those jewels while giving her a shot. :( We sure do miss you at UCI...

Caitlin said...

I am so proud of you. I can only imagine what that was like for you and I am sure that if it were me, I would be a hot hysterical mess. Look what you have accomplished in such a short time and all that you have experienced. I hope that you give yourself some serious credit for being so strong, even if you may not always feel that way. You were right about vegan food coming a long way and yes, we have a Whole Foods downtown. Thanks for the encouragement!

Heather said...

All I can say is... WOW. You are the MOM!

The Bogren's said...

I look up to you!!! You are so strong!

Carrie Anne said...

oh ruth i would die if i had to do that, too!! you are so awesome! man i think about you & that darling baby every single day i hope you know! and maybe i say a prayer or 2 or 3 for her, too, b/c i think she is an absolute DOLL! i know it's so hard with her being in the NICU BUT i think you are so lucky to have that baby girl b/c she radiates this angelic personality that i just die over! i seriously cannot get enough of her! i'm glad things are going in the right direction & no heart surgery!!!! yahooo!!!! sending positive vibes your way...:)

LAURA :) said...

WOW RUTHIE..... I JUST CAUGHT UP ON YOUR BLOG AND I AM SO PROUD OF YOU!!!... HAVING A SPECIAL NEEDS CHILD IS NOT EASY (I HAVE 2), I TOO HAD TO DO NEEDLES AND I HAVE DEALT WITH CHOC's HOSPITAL ALSO.... YES, I FELT THE SAME WAY.... YOU ARE VERY GOOD AT DESCRIBING YOUR FEELINGS AND EXPLAINING ALL THAT IS GOING ON.... THANK YOU..... I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE MORE PICTURES.... YOUR FAMILY IS SO PRECIOUS.... ALL MY BEST FOR AN UN-EVENTFUL WEEK... OOXX LAURA :)

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Jones Family said...

An ounce of gold today costs... $1,216.70! CRAZY!!!

You can do anything for your little girl!